Today, 24-September-2018, mark the 3rd year of you leaving the world; meaning that leaving me, leaving your family, leaving home, leaving all the Nikmat that Allah has given to you.
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I miss you Mama. I really do.
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I'm mad that i almost forgot that today is the day that you have left us, its the day that we as a family should never forget our whole life! I'm mad that i am too immerse in a so-called living my life that i forgot that you used to be with us. I'm mad that i started to feel okay you are not here with me.
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Because of the thought that I'm okay without you makes me sending lesser doa to you, makes me becoming a lesser kind human being. I am nothing better.
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With you, i always want to love as i know that you have always loved me unconditionally.
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With you, i know what i want to do in life and where to head to in this life path.
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With you i am strong to face the world, but since you were not beside me I'm lost and weak. My head and its surface just wanted me to feel and look as if I'm alright, but at the back of my alone mind, I'm fragile, scared and unhappy.
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I wish that you would be there to greet me every morning and night; smiling.
I hope that i could see you everyday making cute faces and being cheeky to me.
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I have always thought about the life that we had before you were down with sickness. You used to cook, do house chores, wash clothes, do grocery, watching TV, chit chatting on the phone, and so much more that i lost count.
You were bright, and everyone loves you. I wish i was good as you.
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I miss you Mama, sorry that it's hard to be a good daughter, but i really love you sincerely.
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I will try my very best to ease your life on the other side until i will see you again.
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Al Fatihah ♥
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